This morning I woke up and automatically my mind started racing.
Filling up with all of the things I needed to do today. I start making a mental "to-do" list. I can't help it. It just starts flowing into my head. Whether or not I like it, my head is already exploding with every little possible thing I could/should/need to get done today.
My friend Jamie (who I haven't seen in probably three months because we are both so "busy") called me yesterday and asked me when I could get together for lunch. I said "Man, I've just been sooo busy lately..I honestly don't know." We did end up setting a day, but it was only after 10 minutes of comparing our crazy busy schedules. I mean...is that normal? I think not.
When I stopped to think about WHY I was so busy...I had a hard time figuring it out. I mean yes, I have a home to take care of, a super active baby, a blog to keep up with, emails constantly coming in, a shop to keep up with, etc..etc.. But other than that..it's a lot of "BUSY WORK". I never thought this would be my normal.
But it's becoming THE NORM.
I can't go to XYZ because I'm busy with XYZ.
I can't do that for you because XYZ is taking over my life.
I don't have time for XYZ because I am currently busy with XYZ.
Are we just "BUSY" for the sake of being busy? Does it make us feel better to be busy? When I check something off of my NEVERENDING To-Do List, do I get a mini thrill? It doesn't last long if it's there..because soon after I'm adding three more things to it.
Sometimes, when my hubby gets home, he'll ask me what I did today...and I honestly can't remember. It's full of stupid little things that keep me constantly busy throughout the day:
I thought about my day yesterday...here's a little snippet:
Wake up. Start running through my list. Get up. Make breakfast. Clean up breakfast. Empty the dishwasher. Put the dishes in. Clean the sink. What's Davis doing? Clean up Davis' mess. Get myself ready. No shower. Get Davis ready. No bath. Drive to the bank. Drive to the jewelry store. Go to the tire store. Wait 2 1/2 hours. Drive home. Pick up the toys. Pick up that sock. Put the sock in the dirties. Look at all the laundry I need to fold. Ignore it. Scrub down the microwave. Remember the garbages need to be brought in. Bring in the garbages. Pick up the garbage around the garbage that the man didn't get. Get distracted by my dirty car. Wash the car. Dry the car. Vacuum the car. See the mailman..get the mail. Throw away most of the mail cause it's junk. Stop to look at an Urban Outfitters catalog. Throw it away after 2 minutes. Etc....etc....
You see? I mean...it's just FILLED with little things that take up my entire day. And at the end of the day, I'm absolutely exhausted. Did I spend any "quality time" with my son? Besides the 2 1/2 hours waiting at the tire store..not really. Am I taking time to appreciate every little moment? Or am I just being busy for the SAKE of being busy.
We just LOVE to say we are BUSY. We love it. We feel like if we "say" we are busy, then we are doing something. Accomplishing something. PROVING to people that we have lives that are as important as theirs. Does that make any sense?
Why has it become ok/totally normal/totally acceptable to be THIS BUSY???
As a Mom, my goals are to: KEEP HEALTHY/FIT, KEEP MY HOME TOGETHER, KEEP MY BABY/HUBBY HAPPY, AND KEEP MYSELF FROM HAVING A MENTAL BREAKDOWN.
Ha ok, maybe not the last one...that only happens sometimes. :)
So you want people to think you "have a super busy life," eh? Well then, keep your physical appearance in crappy shape. Don't do your hair. Put on no makeup. Say you didn't have time to get to the gym. People will feel bad for you. Ohhh you poor thing...you must be SO BUSY!!
And then we can feel better about ourselves. Cause we are busy...so we didn't have time to take care of ourselves. Which is SO SILLY because if we don't take care of ourselves..then we can't take care of anyone else!
What do YOU think? Are you like me? Are you constantly trying to DO EVERYTHING? Trying to be as perfect as possible? Trying to be BUSY just to BE BUSY?
Or are you stopping to say "it's O.K" that I don't have time for everything today. It can wait. It can wait until tomorrow..or the next day. It's not as important as I'm making it out to be?
I think we all would be a little (or a LOT) happier if we just STOPPED this crazy busy mentality.
I want THIS life for a day or two....Is it wishful thinking?
Sound off. Tell me what you think. I'd love to hear it!!