When I was younger, I was afraid of almost nothing. I mean, ya sure, maybe a monster under my bed, or not getting asked to Prom..but for the most part..I was pretty fearless.
Everyday was exciting. I had no idea where life would take me or what crazy adventure my friends & I would go on that day.
Then I had to grow up. Things became a little more "real." Life became more real. I had to pay for rent, utilities (water?!), my own clothes, car (gas was only $1.25! so it wasn't that bad). Fears started creeping in...
What if I lost my job? What if I don't finish school? What if I can't pay rent this month? What if I'm single forever? Creep, creep, creep....
If we're being honest (and I am), I am afraid of a LOT of things. I have become a total scaredy-cat. I could go REALLY deep and tell you lots of crazy emotional fears, but I'll try & keep it pretty surface-y.
I am afraid of snakes.
I'm afraid of being alone at my house when my hubby is gone.
I'm afraid something bad will happen to my son when I'm not around (talking about my PARENTING fears is a whole separate post!) ;)
I'm afraid of being buried alive.
I'm afraid of losing myself as person, because I'm a Mom now.
I'm afraid of my basement.
I'm afraid of losing someone close to me.
I'm afraid some crazy attacker will break into my house & I'll have to defend myself.
I'm afraid of scary movies.
I'm afraid of the dentist (they're so mean if you get a cavity!).
I'm afraid of flying over the ocean.
Ok guys, get it? Hehe. I could go on...but I don't want this post to be forty two pages. I have no idea why, as we get older, more & more fears creep in. I wish (oh how I wish) I could STOP these things. Some of the fears, I can control pretty well (meaning I don't let them consume me). But some of them, really really take over my thoughts. Bad news bears. I guess that's why they are called fears, though. But can't I just have one or two? I mean...really. :)
Am I alone? Does anyone else think that as you got older, more fears took over you?